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Cynicism ...

When I was first entering college I was rather full of myself and cynical about the world around me. I thought, at the time, that age, experience, and knowledge had made me cynical. I learned rather quickly the meaning behind the phrase "ignorance is bliss". Yet I find now that I have more years behind me and several successes and failures along with memories that are painful and blissful ... I am less cynical.

Over the last four years or so I have noticed that I am mellowing out a rather large amount. I think in the past I often said that I didn't need anyones acceptance even though I yearned to be accepted by society. Now, I realize that I do need acceptance, I just don't look for it everywhere. I cherish the people who have walked next to me through all my ungainly years and have learned to distance myself from situations that I know will only bring pain or drama. My self esteem is still often as fragile as it was when I was sixteen - I have just learned how to take care of it myself.

All that being said - I have found that cynicism has started to really annoy me. It really makes me angry when people are negative simply for the sake of being negative. I have noticed that one of the quickest ways to raise my ire as of late is to bring down someone else's joy. When I see it happening I can't help but ask why? I mean, I know that misery loves company but seeing it in practice is rather sickening. There is enough in this world that is depressing and disheartening without picking apart things for the sake of destruction alone. What makes it worse is that I find that most the time cynical people tear down other people's joy with a smile of their own.

I also find it interesting that people who are cynical often use such tactics against or in reference to accomplishments or hopes of others. Taking the value out of someones work or joy out of some future endeavor. The more I encounter it the uglier I find it. It seems like a cop out - what lesser people do to feel sanctimonious over great accomplishments/ambitions of others.


Cynicism is not realistic and tough.
It's unrealistic and kind of cowardly because it means you don't have to try.


~Peggy Noonan~

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sartorias
Aug. 24th, 2008 04:54 am (UTC)
Sarcasm is such an awful, awful weapon.
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